Reading by @thecosmicpath
omfg, this reading could not possibly be more on point. i have to share with you all the difficult but inspiring soul journey i have been on the past few days. i have shaken in fear with the energy that has been directed at me, but i refused not take responsibility (on a spiritual level) for why i drew this into my life. i know the universe is conspiring FOR me. i know this, i freaking preach this to everyone around me! but this was a true test of my belief…
many of you know about the viral success of my remineralizing toothpaste. it’s sold out many times and there have been weeks where we have sold 500 units in a single week! the success was driven solely by people’s experiences and positive reviews of it. i would say i’ve had about 60-70 customers tell me they have healed with it. things from cavities, to gum issues, to tooth sensitivity. i had never fancied myself a toothpaste expert, but i rode the wave!
the toothpaste blew up to the extent where we gained the attention of the folks behind some of the biggest holistic companies in the world. after visiting and attending meetings, we were advised to move to boulder co. i was unsure but surrendered and asked for signs. that night, i had a dream of us moving into a triangle house. it came to me as a house that was slightly more expensive than we were looking for, but i was being asked to trust and to sign the lease as an affirmation of trust. i felt in my dream that it would be our dream house, and that we would only be led to it by having high standards and not settling on ANYTHING.
a few days later we found the little a-frame right on the mountain, in the nicest neighborhood in town, walking distance from the downtown area (and a pharmaca and whole foods!) 3 is a sacred number and a sign to me… and the address is 3111 3rd street. (my birthday is 3-1-1991 ; notice there are three 1s and two nines which is 3x3).
now i want to fast forward a month later to the end of last week. we have been living here for a month. i logged onto facebook to find multiple “smear campaigns” written against my toothpaste. one of these woman had her son fall on his face and chipped his teeth and blamed my toothpaste. the other woman had her teeth get worse while using it.
now i am being attacked virtually. i have women demanding i call them. threatening to SUE me. disparaging me and my intentions. saying that i am a charlatan and that i am disgusting for making these products in my home. they literally turned me, in their minds, into a mal-intentioned monster. i was so shocked how this could be part of my reality when my top intention has always and will always be to create and provide healing products. i never advertised, i never made any claims (my customers made them!!). I have so many people all over the web writing about my product saying positive things, yet these two women’s testimonies against me seems to, at least at that moment, top all the other experiences. people have filed PayPal disputes against me! demanded refunds…. etc etc.
now, i want to be clear, there are ways to use a remineralizing paste that could potentially not be beneficial. if you over-scrub your ailing teeth, it is almost like using a scrub brush to scrub neosporin into a wound. if you have an extremely dry mouth and acidic saliva, you are not going to have much luck in terms of your teeth absorbing vitamins. i try to make these points clear in my instructions, but being that i am not the one taking care of these people’s mouths, there is most definitely room for user error.
i was shaking, i was so fucking scared. was my paste really hurting people even though so many people said it healed them? was this my fault? i was forced to look at my self so brutally honest. and i saw exactly what it was that drew in this experience for me.
even though i had the 95% majority intention based off of providing healing (literally gave speeches about it to my team all the damn time), there WAS a small portion of me that was wanting to sell more and desiring for people to buy more. on a small, but still real level my intention was that i wanted everyone to buy my paste. of course, there is NO healing product that is going to be right for everyone! just like an herb that can be medicinal for me can hurt you and vice verse.
SO, what have i done? it’s scary when my income and security is in jeapordy, this is a major fucking spiritual test for me!!
but, what i have realized is that my soul intended to come into this life with no lenience for me deviating from my soul purpose. even that small fraction of fear-based belief that wanted to sell more (out of an intention to have security for my family) was enough to draw into me customers who were not there for healing; but who were vibrationally a match to my fear-based issues around money (of COURSE they demanded their money back!)
now, i am fully anchoring back into my true souls purpose; to create healing products for the world. and on top of that, i fully surrender to the divine. i am a servant. i no longer will ever let fears about money seep into my consciousness. my only intention is to create the highest quality products and my secondary intention is that i pull in those who can truly heal with them. that is it. that is my mission right there in those two lines. i surrender to my divine duty and i know that the divine will take care of me for following my souls intended path!
and you know what? i feel better today that i have in weeks. i am inspired again, my soul is on FIRE with creativity. I am already in the midst of creating tinctures and healing products that are unlike anything else out there. I feel alive, my sacral chakra beaming with life once again. Creating and selling a bajillion toothpastes was cool, but not my life purpose. Creating them on such a mass level made it lose it’s shine and it became a chore.
So here i am, we have sold one toothpaste in the past two days, but i am stepping into full TRUST. i am anchored in it. I am spending my money to invest in creating the absolute best quality products that i can.
just a little sneak peak; but i will be creating herbal inhalers that will topically treat the lungs for pneumonia, dry lung, and excessive mucuous.
i am also creating tinctures and creams that provide natural, healthy, and balanced feelings of ecstasy! an incredibly unique blend that will contain herbs, flower essences, crystals and will be only created with the absolute purest intentions. this means they will only be made after meditation, after saging, while listening to holy sounds and healing mantras. they will be infused with solar or lunar energies (depending on the intention) and will absolutely be the most divinely healing products you’ve ever come across…
i will be using ancient ayurvedic applications of herbs, which means that your lotion will not just nourish your skin, but it may also treat your anxiety and depression.
that being said, we will still be selling our toothpaste (i have had many messages from customers who begged me not to stop selling)… BUT, i want to truly perfect the consistency and texture so there will be some minor changes. We will also be upping the energy and intention behind our creation and utilizing vibrational healing methods such as sound bowls, mantra, crystals, flower essences, etc.
so there is the story about how a seemingly-awful event has been utilized by me in the highest way. i have used the pain to guide me to unhealed parts of myself. i have used the reflection to bring my back to my soul’s purpose.